Hello to my journal again….sorry for not updating my blog for an ages ….just being busy with my ups and downs life…things pretty much as same as before but there’s something that disturbing my mind….
One of my best guy friends has confessed to me that he wanted me to be his gf… that night was a bit different for us….but I had my limit as I have to remember that I am taken n I can’t be unfaithful to my beloved one…so I didn’t give him any answer even he tried to persuade me…and he said he is willing to wait which I don’t know for how long
Well, thinking abt future wise, yes my best friend has more privilege to make me comfy…but I am not sure either I love him or just like him…so it’s confused me as my beloved one is 70% perfect except when it’s come to financial stability and career wise he is not the one at all…but I do love him so much..that’s for sure…and to start all over again…i think I’ve had enough with it…as for all that I’ve been thru it’s enough to be hurt again…
Talking about my future, my beloved one might go to US for 3-4years to continue his study maybe by end of this year….am I willing to wait?? I have no answer for it…but if it’s worth and we have work out this relationship…i am willing to wait…but if it’s not…that will be just wasting my time. It’s all about loyalty and there must be a trust between us…SIGH!! I really don’t know what to do…
Back to my best friend, after 5days he confessed…we met again for a movie….and this time he acted strangely which I’ve confirmed that he is only suits to be my friend…that’s it…not more than that…In this age, I am not going play around anymore and I need to make sure that the person to be serious with his and my life…. I’m sick & tired of everything actually.
